Don’t Wait To Write–A Personal Story

I have a long time friend who was dying of cancer.  In fact, she passed away just this morning.  She was doing better and we thought she would pull through, but two weeks ago she took a drastic turn for the worst.  I stopped by to visit her several times.  I brought over food.  I sent positive text messages to her and her husband.  But really, at the beginning of all this I thought to myself, “what can I do for my friend?”

Really.

Photo courtesy of AudreyJM529/Flickr

In spite of this blog, it took me a while to think about writing her a letter.  When I did think of writing her, I was nervous.  My friend is so brilliant and introspective, and thoughtful and dynamic.  I wasn’t sure what to write.  Just as many of you are unsure.  But I followed my steps about how to write a letter and I did it.  And, the last step–giving it to your loved one–was hard.  Because my letter wasn’t really very good.  It didn’t say anything earth-shaking.  It seemed so inadequate.

But the point is that I DID write the letter and I DID give it to her.  My friend read it when I left the room;  when I returned and as I was leaving she said, “thank you.”  That was enough.

I’m glad I didn’t wait to write the letter and deliver it.  The next time I saw my friend, even though she was to live a while longer, she would not have been capable of reading my letter because she was too weak.  Someone could have read it to her, but then she would miss making her observation to me, “I especially like the letterhead.”  (I had typed it on business stationery!)  And I would’ve missed that last loving, sassy remark from my friend.

I’m glad I didn’t wait to write the letter and deliver it.  Now I feel a peace knowing that she knew for certain how important she is/was to me, how she inspired me.

I’m glad I didn’t wait to write the letter and deliver it.  One never knows what tomorrow will bring.

I encourage you to write a letter to your loved one.  To your mother for Mother’s Day.  To your son who is graduating.  To your daughter who is leaving your family and starting her own.

I will share my letter (as bush-league as it is) in a later post.

Touching Letter From Grandmother With Dementia To Tomás

This letter came in and had to be translated.  I hope the translation does justice to the original sentiment.  It certainly makes me feel the special bond this grandmother and her grandson share and the pain she feels knowing that she has early onset dementia.

Grandmother-Grandson photo courtesy of Serif Salama and EveryStockPhoto.com

Grandmother-Grandson photo courtesy of Serif Salama and EveryStockPhoto.com

 

Mi nieto Tomás,

Mi pequeño niño dulce. My sweet little child.

I am going away. I will still be with you but I won’t know it. And you won’t know the real me because I am going away in my mind. It makes me very sad to know that I won’t be around to watch my little grandson grow up and become a man. It makes me very sad to know that you won’t know the person that I am and you will only remember me as a shell of who I really am.

I love to dance. I love to sing, but even though I can’t sing very well, that doesn’t stop me. I love to work in my garden. Chayote is my favorite, but I like tomatoes and chilies and the smell of the dirt. Do you remember when you were even smaller than you are now when we grew carrots from the tops? Or singing “bate bate chocolate” as we cooked?

Bate bate chocolate,

Con arroz y con tomate

Uno, dos, tres, CHO!

Uno, dos, tres, CO!

Uno, dos, tres, LA!

Uno, dos, tres TE!

Chocolate, chocolate, chocolate, chocolate!

We had fun together, you and I. Teasing Abuelo when he couldn’t find us playing escondidas. You always make me smile. I know that won’t change.

I know you will grow up to be a good man. Today you are kind and happy and thoughtful. You are gentle with your baby sister. You love your family. Nurture these things and you will live a happy life.

There’s no walking away from destiny and this is mine. Just know I love you with all my heart.

Abuela

Father’s Day Letter From Janie

Janie contacted me about how to write her own Goodbye Letter.  She followed the outline provided here and wrote a beautiful letter to her father.  She wrote it around Father’s Day, but just now was willing to share it.  Thank you for your courage, Janie.  Your letter will inspire others to do the same.

Photo by emdot and courtesy of everystockphoto.com

Photo by emdot and courtesy of everystockphoto.com

Hi, Dad!

My first memory of you was when you were flying me on your feet. You are laying on the shag carpet on your back and you are wiggling your bare toes under my belly as your legs fly me around. You are holding my sides with your hands and they feel tight on me. You are laughing and I am laughing and Jilly is crying because she wants a turn.

Then I remember you and mom fighting. I remember you yelling and slamming the screen door. You wanted to be alone, but I tried to go outside and sit next to you. You would let me sit next to you if I didn’t talk. Mom would yell at me to come inside after a while and I did because I was afraid not to. I hated you and mom fighting.

When you moved out and said goodbye it was hard. I knew why you and mom were getting divorced. I knew your drinking had gotten bad and that you didn’t work all the time and that mom didn’t love you any more. But I didn’t care. I didn’t want you to leave because I still loved you.

For a while Jilly and I had two houses. You always said we were lucky because we had two houses to live in and most kids only have one. But then you didn’t have your house and then we stopped visiting and you stopped calling. But I still loved you.

Now my last memory of you is when mom called me at Jilly and Tom’s house and she told me you passed away. She sounded so tired, but she wasn’t crying. I guess I was too stunned to cry, too. I wish I could just cry and cry, but I can’t get it all out. I knew this would happen. In my heart I knew one day the drinking would get you. But I always hoped you would get the better of it. I guess I was wrong.

I will miss you.  Even though I haven’t seen you in a while, I know I will miss you. I will hold you close to my heart. I will remember the daddy that used to fly me on his feet. I will forget the hard times and remember the good times.

It’s Father’s Day and I want you to know that I still love you.

Cancer patient says goodbye to her hair

This letter was given to me by a friend suffering from breast cancer.  It’s amazing how women identify with their hair.  

Hair photo courtesy of Image*After.

Hair photo courtesy of Image*After.

Dear Lovely Tresses:

It’s time to say goodbye. You have always served me well.

I am a plain person with no outstanding skills or qualities except for you.

I am short. You are oh so long.

I am nondescript and dumpy. You are luxurious and glamorous.

People never comment on my clothes, but they always comment on you.

No one remembers what I do or say, but they remember you.

My grandkids love to play with you. I love when they comb you and style you and spend time with me because of you. You have brought me closer to them. You have made them think of me and tell their friends about me.

But now I have to cut you off. I want to cut you off before you fall out on your own. I will miss you. My family will miss you. I wonder what will happen without you. I know I have cancer, but I’m sadder to loose you. What if I scare my grandkids without you? What if people don’t talk to me because I don’t have you with me?

I will save you and have you framed in five little frames so that I can give one to each grandchild to remember you. I know you will be back one day, but it will be many, many years from now.

Now my next goodbye will be to cancer!

After decades as pen pals, friends say final goodbyes

I came across this story by Jim Stingl from the Milwaukee County Journal Sentinel and felt it was something to share with you.  Very touching.

Click this link to read the entire article.

Until this embrace, these pen pals had not seen each other in 25 years.  Photo courtesy of Jim Stingl.

Until this embrace, these pen pals had not seen each other in 25 years. Photo courtesy of Jim Stingl.

These women didn’t have to write goodbye letters to each other–they’d been writing their whole lives, so I’m sure, nothing was left unsaid.

As Christmas arrives, we remember to give thanks for our friendships.

Goodbye letter to Robin Williams from a fan

I guess we all grieve in different ways.  This person wrote a letter to Robin Williams whom, I assume, he never met in person.  Writing a letter to someone you don’t know personally didn’t cross my mind before today.  But this letter, hopefully, helped ease the pain in the author’s heart:

Dear Robin:

You made me laugh.  You brought joy into people’s lives. You were so upbeat.  You were a genius.   I’m so sad that you left us.  There was so much more you could give to the world.  I’m so sad to know that that you were sad when all you did was to make others happy.

I’m sending you this letter in my heart.  I wish I sent it to you before you felt like you had nothing left.  You gave so much.  We will miss you.

–Adam

I encourage you to write a letter to a loved one today!  If you’d like me to share it with others, please send it to me at letters@LastGoodbyeLetters.com.

Say goodbye to being bullied

This came my way and, after cleaning up the punctuation and a word or two, I’m posting it for you.  I don’t understand all of it because, apparently, I’m not cool.  But the gist is plain to see for everyone:  Don’t allow yourself to be a target.  Love yourself even if you think no one else does.  You are a person of value.  Let’s say a prayer for all the Angels in the world:

Dear Angel:

 

It’s time to lace it up dude.  You are cool.  You’re beautiful.  You’re not fat.  You’re not cray cray.  I know you.  You’re clean, chido.  No molly.  No weed.  No more caguamas.

 

Next time they come at you, turn around dude.  Swerve.  All you need to prove is to yourself.  You don’t need to fight back.  You don’t need to cut to feel anything.  You’re the bigger man dude.

 

I’m down with you.  And that’s the only thing that matters.  F@*# those other guys. No hay bronca.  Orale!

Photo courtesy of Morgue File-Anita Patterson photographer

Goodbye letter to a mother with dementia is bitter sweet

I received this letter today and I wondered if I should post it.  It isn’t all flowery and nice, but it is reality.  And there is definitely love in it.  I thought I should post it so that others who are primary care givers for loved ones with dementia will see that it’s OK to feel scared, mad and alone.  Read on:

Dear, dear Mom,

As I sit here looking at you napping in your chair, I realize that you’ve been gone from me for such a long time.  I miss you.  I miss that we used to have napping woman courtesy of eflonsuch stimulating conversations with Dad.  I miss that you used to smile and laugh at my jokes.  I miss you taking care of me.  I miss your intellect, your insight and your bright spirit.

Now, I’m taking care of you.  And it’s hard.  And I’m tired.  Sometimes I want to go to sleep and not wake up.  You are healthy, except your mind is gone.  My friends and sister all tell me to think of myself and place you in a home.  Do you know that I’ve called several, been on the list to get you in and when the phone call comes that says there’s room for you, I just can’t do it.  They’ve stopped calling me because they know I can’t place you.  You’re my mom.

Sometimes I’m so angry with you and Dad for leaving me in this situation.  I guess I don’t know what else you could’ve done, but I’m still resentful.  And I’m scared.  I can’t lift you without help from Hospice workers.  There’s so much I can’t do.  I just try to hold on to any little bit of normalcy.  It’s so wonderful for me to get an hour to go to the grocery store by myself.  I feel free.  And I feel bad that I feel free.

I’m thankful that you know me a little bit still.  That’s a little bit that I can hold on to of the old you.

I love you, Mom.  And I’m saying goodbye now even though you can’t read this letter.  I just want you to know that you are so special to me.  Even like you are today.  Even though it’s hard.

I love you.

 

If you would like to share your goodbye letter with others, please e-mail it to me at: Letters@LastGoodbyeLetters.com

Doug shares a letter to his dad as they make the decision to take him off life support.

This moving letter came to me recently.  It shows the love and pain that goes into the decision to take a loved one off life support.  I thought I’d share it with you:

Dad, I wanted to talk to you and tell you what’s going on. We are gonna pull the intubation tube out of you in a bit. You most likely won’t be able to breathe on your own after this.

 

I wanted to thank you for being a great dad and teaching me to be a man of science so that I can understand and deal with what’s been happening. You always told me you didn’t want to be hooked up to machines. So, to keep the promise I made to you in Colorado, I will not let them keep you in a vegetative state. You are probably gonna die today and I wanted to be the one that told you. I promise it wont hurt. I promise you will go painlessly. You will become stardust again. You will be pure energy and get to go see all those places you always dreamed about.

 

Photo by jimkster courtesy of everystockphoto.com

Photo by jimkster courtesy of everystockphoto.com

We will bump into each other again one day– random photons bouncing off each other headed to see a different part of the universe.

 

Don’t fight it when it happens. We will all be here guiding you to the next phase.

 

I’m gonna go now.  I love you; the rest of the family wants to speak with you. The nurses will start giving you medicine soon so you won’t feel anything.

 

I love you.

 

See you out there one day. Godspeed. I love you. Don’t be afraid I’m here.

I hope this beautiful letter moves you into action to write your own letter to someone you love and let them know how you feel!  If you would like to share your letter with others and give others inspiration, please send it to me and I’ll share your love.

Fred Stobaugh writes a poem to his late wife, Sweet Lorraine

By now you may have heard about the sweet story of 96-year-old widower, Fred Stobaugh who wrote a love poem to his wife and sent it into Green Shoe Studio’s contest to become a produced song. When everyone else was sending in their entries via YouTube, Fred’s came by US Postal Service.  But it’s sincerity touched the producers’ hearts and, apparently the hearts of many others.   Today, Fred’s song, Sweet Lorraine, is trending as one of the top downloads on iTunes.

Fred and Lorraine met in 1938 when she was a car hop at the A&W Root Beer stand and their love for each other grew for 75 years until she died this past April.  They had so many happy years together to which the photos Fred likes to show can attest.  And I’m sure that Lorraine knows how much Fred loved her.

Maybe Fred wrote other poems and love notes to Lorraine.  But I’m sad because so many people don’t really tell–tell from the heart–others about the way they feel.  It is often to painful to say in person, so writing can be an option.

This web blog is dedicated to helping others put their words down on paper and delivering the thoughts to the loved one before the person is gone from our lives.  Maybe it’s a move, or a marriage, or a child moving out of the house.  Maybe you are writing a goodbye to the ‘old’ you as you start fresh on a new journey of life.

Please write down your thoughts and give them to your loved one.  It’s good for you and wonderful for them.  If you need help writing your letter, check out my Tips On How To Write Your Own Last Goodbye Letter.

Happy writing.